9 months ago i was in decent shape, my skin was dark because I was always backpacking and hiking. I did Kung Fu and Tai Chi religiously, i thought it was going to be my life. But most of all i was motivated to actually give a damn about my future. Well since then there has been a lot of crap in my family and my life (mom running off with a ex boyfriend and putting my family through 6 long months of emotional turmoil) and lots of relationship drama that went on for weeks almost right after the divorce drama subsided. Now I really don’t have anything crazy going on in my life and i feel absolutely drained. My life has become that catchy Bruno Mars song about not wanting to do anything. I constantly skip my community college classes, I call in sick to work a lot more frequently (good friends with manager and I think shes worried about me) and i have almost completely stopped the martial arts that was my life. I just want to lay around all day, smoke pot (been smoking habitually for the past 5 years), and play videos games. I also haven’t gone backpacking for a wile a and my hiking 3 times a week has slowed to the point where I’m lucky if i go once every 2 weeks. Whats is wrong with me people? This Isn’t the person who I’ve worked so hard to become and I have no motivation to fix it. I’m staying home from work today because i couldn’t pull my lazy ass out of bed, so please offer your advice or if anybody has a similar story to mine where they turned it around please share. I think I’m pretty much desperate at this point.
It was 7 long months of the worst kind of drama, excuse me if i don’t want to get far into the details. But believe me it takes a lot to bring me down, but all the crap I’ve gone through these past few months would tear down even the strongest of people. I’m not just some teen bitching about his unfair life these past few months have just really sucked the life out of me.
