Hi, I had a psychotic episode last year triggered by an intensive meditation course. I had hallunications, delusions (believed I was the new messiah, telepathy, etc etc), almost committed suicide, and it completely freaked me out.
It lasted a week. I have been recovering since. I’ve been through a severe depression this year and have been trying to build myself and my life back together.
Now I’m getting much better – I’ve been back at work for five months, I am on medication, and am seeing a psychiatrist and counsellor.
The current problem is that I don’t feel my emotions. It’s really horrible, like I’m half alive. I don’t feel happy, unhappy, sad, afraid, joyful, excited – just nothing. Or very rarely. I think it’s a protective mechanism – like I’m still in shock.
However, I’m in a safe environment now and I’d like to aid the recovery process, so the question is: how do I get back in touch with my emotions?
I was diagnosed with schizo-affective disorder of mixed type.
