I’ve been really down latly. More then normal for me. I have been thinking a lot about suicide actually. Don’t get me wrong I would never actually do it but I have been thinking a lot about it and ways to do it. I know i could never end my own life which is why I am so confused. I have just never been this miserable. I lay in my room with the lights off and sheets over my windows with sad music playing over and over and I’m eating but not much and I run from human interaction unless its online or over the phone. I don’t know what is going on with me. has this ever happened to anyone before?
I know this sounds like a typical teenage remark but I cannot tell my parents. They believe in natural medication and all this meditation stuff like “hugging the tree” its a tai chi move. Thats the stuff the believe in so they would just tell me to meditate and i would be fine. I don’t know what to do or who to talk to. Can anyone help me out on this one. I know its 1am but I am just so completely lost. Thank you
okay no joke…thats like the worst advice ive ever gotten from anyone…
im not going to do pot r u crazy? im like never on my computer…so its not too much internet time…and i normally hang out with ppl but like i said i jsut dont want to right now and its not normal for me…can u ppl read or what?!
I’m stuck in a emotional loop, how do I get out?
I have always passed through stages of things I think I like. For example I wanted to play an instrument then all of a sudden I no longer wanted to play. This happens to me all the time. I like something for a while then I’m either really against the idea or I just don’t care anymore. Right now I am in trouble, and I need advice from others. I have liked asian guys for some time now and I have always admired kung fu, tai chi, and chinese language. I recently started taking chinese language class and things have not really been going smooth. I know learning a language is complicated and hard because I also learned spanish. But the teacher keeps calling on me when we are in class and he always seems to pick times when I don’t know whats going on. I keep embarrassing myself. This last class I was supposed to talk to a asian guy and I couldn’t because I was unaware of what he was saying to me. I embarrassed myself a lot. I got over it by the end of the night. But now a day later I don’t want to learn chinese and I also want nothing to do with asian guys, kung fu (I have been doing kung fu for years), and tai chi. I broke down crying today because today means that its only one day closer to the next class. What do I do? Do I force myself to continue? Do I quit? It might be one of those times when I just randomly decide I don’t want to do something anymore. Or it might be because of my last situation. If it is one of those times that I just randomly decide to quit, do I just go with that instinct or do I continue? Thanks ahead of time. And yes I know its a stupid question, I don’t need really negative comments because that may quite possibly make me commit suicide.
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